I think it was all right to hijack R2's thread; she never said anything about it.
You can find me on the alt, too, screen name is spelled out; I have a regular account there, also, but keep them separated.
My time is limited, but I'm attempting to keep up as I can.
I'd kept checking back here for you, was getting a little worried; but understand you're busy, too; knew you were ok.
I don't mind listening to vents, helping people sort things out; have been there, done that too, myself...and it helped to have someone who will listen.
Venting is also part of the purging/healing process gone through as we pass through one stage to another in our lives; we learn, purge and heal one stage at a time.
The answers are within YOU..you learn to access those within; and sometimes as you get it all out, the answers for you will come; and you see/hear them as you "talk it out."
When you keep it all in your head; it has a tendency to look MUCH worse than it does when you throw it all out on the table to be looked at.
Do something nice for yourself..it doesn't have to be something elaborate; but something for YOU to help you to feel better about yourself...you cannot control what happens, but you can take care of yourself; going on with your life...as this, too, shall pass in time.
Much love, HB
Remember, as each person is different, every MLC/Transition is different..what works for one may not work for another. Most of the time it is trial and error for ALL involved.