Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

So my question is: why now? Why not six months ago. Why now, when I'm finally starting to adjust to living on my own with DS. When I'm finally starting to think that maybe, just maybe, there is the slightest of chances that yes I will be able to love again. And how do I know that it's not just to get to DS that he's going to agree to work things out with me. How do I know that I'm the reason he wants to work things out, that he misses me. That he loves me. How do I know that he won't decide to walk away again if things get too hard for him to handle.