I think it would be reasonable to say to X, "Thanks for your message, but I'm exceptionally busy right now. I'd prefer to speak/meet once I have all the necessary info to discuss this. I'll get back to you ____ (next week)."
And this: Why do I feel so freaking guilty about "getting" the house--assuming I can afford it?
Talk about this w your C. Maybe she can help you get to the core of it. Doesn't seem rational but sometimes our feelings aren't rational. Maybe just accept that you feel this way & don't worry about it. You know logically you shouldn't. We have so many mixed emotions coursing through us during turmoil, I think our wires get crossed sometimes & we get irrational guilt.
I will talk with my C about this. At this point, I feel guilty if it rains, or the stock market goes down, or anything else you can mention.
