My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

thanks, DQ!! yes, I absolutely see it as a blessing in disguise. while I wish he had had the integrity to "earn his way out" of the marriage, well...if he had, we wouldn't have had the issues we had to begin with. I don't want him to be my husband again, I don't want him to love me again--I'm not sure he's capable of loving anyone besides himself.

He's never faced his demons. He believes he has,but he hasn't scratched the surface because they're all external. not sure what it would take to make him face them, but I think what will happen is he'll just transfer his affection from old OW to a new woman with very little self-reflection.

besides, what matters is that I've faced my demons, and come out the other side more whole and more wise, and more who I was meant to be. I wish with all my heart that I didn't have to drag D14 thru it as well, but at the very least I hope I've given her a good example of rising from the ashes and getting smarter as a result.

so--had a second interview for the research position today, and I think it went well. I feel very bad about leaving my school, I truly do--especially if it works out that I leave before the end of the school year. but I had a chat with a co-worker today--amazing man who serves as a mentor, a former NFL linebacker. I felt a lot of peace as a result of our talk. anyway, I will hear something in a week or so. if I get this position, my salary will increase significantly (don't know the specifics yet) and the benefits are wonderful too. it involves research into pediatric Type I diabetes; it's very left-brained, and I'm very NOT left-brained, but it also requires some good communication and relationship-building skills and I have those (as long as they don't require husband-communication, that is). I'll keep you posted!