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[TRUSTING]

Forward,

Going dark does help. The more time away from ex the clearer I see the situation and those emotions don't cloud my judgement. My ex is planning another vacation with OW and my kids. He just came back from a cruise with her. It is endless. If he has credit, he travels.

We just have to accept the fate we have and do the best with it. I know that eventually sin has to catch up to the sinner. I will just watch from a distance as I grow stronger and more independent each day.

Take care

[forward]

Trusting, It sounds to me as if it is an attempt to keep up some fantasy. Probably real life is not so fun, so maybe a vacation will solve it.

I don't have much new to talk about. I am busy. Feel less stressed about work, although I suppose I should be more stressed these days, sigh.

[forward]

X looked very sad today. I felt sorry for him.

However, I have simply let him be.

[braveheart]

Forward, don't feel sorry for someone who got what he wanted.

[forward]

BH, Not wasting my energy on that.

X sent me a note talking about D and how cute she is, blah blah.

I am choosing not to respond as there is nothing to respond to.

[forward]

Well, X wants to go with us to a school thing. This caught me off-guard. I guess it is good that he shows more interest in D, but I find myself skeptical and wary of him.

[braveheart]

Forward, why does he want to go? Has he ever done this in the past?

[forward]

I don't know. I asked him if he wanted to because I felt it is an obligation on my part.

He has gone maybe once or twice, and he never spends more than ten seconds extra with D unless he is obligated to do so. So this is a unusual. I distrust him.

I figure maybe he is trying to establish a better track record as a parent for custody? We are D'd now so that is kind of a nonissue, but that is about all I can think of.

[forward]

Oh, I meant to add that I've now been dark about 3 months.

Again, not looking a reaction from X...I am more in a situation where I am thinking things over and healing. I realize I have grown a great deal in this time.

Dark has been good for me.

[forward]

X not only showed up, but paid an outstanding bill for school thing. In general, this surprised me.

As I mentioned, I distrust him and feel it could be an angling for revised custody situation, which I am wary of, but D was happy that he was there and I am trying not to be distrustful.

And I caught him looking at me again in that way.

I was, however, neutral and preoccupied w/D.

Another reason to be skeptical is that the last thing he mentioned is an outstanding issue from our divorce, and I think he might be looking to buy house w/OW.