S14! today had a panic attack and walked out of a school assembly, right out the back door, straight home. I was there teaching music lessons. He went straight to D17's room, and she came and got me. I canceled the rest of my schedule. I'm glad he came straight home, but I'm so distressed that he felt like he just couldn't handle things anymore.
He says that when he wakes up he just feels like he doesn't want to do anything, doesn't want to talk to anyone, and the stress is driving him crazy. He calmed down pretty soon.
I know some of this could be normal 14 year old stuff, but I'm sure it's the stress of the break up of our family. And I'm so angry at my W for doing this to us, and I'm so angry at myself for letting this happen to us.
I was calm, and reminded him that no matter what things were gonna be ok. I was very proud of D17. We did finally convince him to go talk to someone, because D17 said they would go together.
It's heartbreaking. I feel like there is little I can do to protect him from this suffering.
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