I always can count on you guys for a good swift kick.
Fig you are right. we made some really good progress this weekend, but then the issue of the job here came up and set us back.
she said "I don't matter anyhow so we will just move back down there."... so yea. this was not the best thing.
I do need to develop a much better PMA...Perhaps that is the thing that I will really try to work on. I am cycling for sure. I am feeling sorry for myself for sure. I miss my wife, my kids for sure. Its been really tough. but in three weeks I will have a house up there about a half mile from her (she is happy about this). I will "just do it" when it comes to being a part of those kids lives. I've missed too much already. Don't want to miss any more.
As for her believing in me... I get my moments where she does... then I find a way to spoil it. or she does and then she doesn't...just based on past feelings coming back.
I do think we are conversing much better. I do think this weekend we had some really nice moments together. It definitely is different than a few months ago... so yes perhaps there is some progress there.
