Will I ever be forgiven???

[AtTheEnd?]

jasper,

I'm not anywhere near a reconciliation. My wife is very distant and has been from the beginning. At least her anger is gone, but there isn't any "spark" there. I'm out of the house, communication is minimal, but at least it's civil. She one time told me that she had to be nice because I'm the father of her children (this was at the beginning). It's difficult to see the positives when you are in the middle of this, but I'm not so sure that there is going to be any sort of reconciliation (this is 10 months in so far), and she told me that it's coming up on a year since this started and her feelings haven't changed (6 weeks ago). It's disappointing and sad, but I get the feeling that she has some sort of date in mind as to when she will bring this to an end.