feel like giving up - pt 2

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Hey T,

DBing doesn't really work on my H he sees it as me being distant and it irritates him when I go out so thats how it is. The reason I want to file first is because I don't believe I have any time left.

I am willing to devote myself 100% for change and I know that starts with me. I have to implement this while going through D so I can come out the other side a better person. I need about a month to get my crap figured out if I had the time but I don't think I have that much time.

I do agree that its time to get with it or get out. I never wanted to give him an ultimatum. I don't even think I have to. I clearly see he wants no part in this. I just don't know what he's waiting for. Maybe ow to leave her H!

Ya know I don't regret anything I haven't done because I truly believe it would have not made a difference. My H is not interested in this marriage and it certainly shows.