Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

CTH,

It is certainly no fun. My STBX appears to be trying to fill the emptiness in her with random guys. She burned white hot with OM1 and apparently reached the conclusion that he was not right for her and immediately began to pursue OM2 with a vengenance. Where this one goes is anyones guess.

Now that she has moved out and the fact that we rarely have any communication with eachother leaves me in the dark on what is happening with her. All of this is a side of her I have never seen before and it is disturbing. There isn't anything I can do about it and I am for the most part resigned to the fact that she is gone.

I continue to do my best to focus on myself and the kids and I continue to GAL but need to add to that. The opportunity to "act as if" rarely if ever at this point is available. The last time I saw her was at our mediation session on March 3rd, she texted me on the 8th and the 12th regarding the kids and that is extent over our communication.

I have been adhereing to a NC policy and I often wonder if I am doing the right thing. I does help me to detach but I'm not sure if I am helping my casuse with her.

She took a trip to St. Louis to either meet up with OM2 or they went to visit together for whatever reason. I think he lives in my city now but who knows.