I concur with just about all you have said about the pteradactyl dream...it does tend to crop up when I am needing to escape or just feeling beat up I don't think I have ever converted it to flying though.
I may give some more thought to a dream journal. There are some dreams that i might not like remembering though
Had one of those icky H w OW dreams last nioght. Nothing like the one from the weekend and I took the dream over instead of it playing itself out so this was just one of those where my fears were playing out
Hugz, Zoo
"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm."
- Mahatma Gandhi
X-mas was excellent Tee cookware is awesome...I did get one of the sets I mentioned liking and am not disappointed in it.
New Years turned out great too H kissed in the New Year with me (this has never happened that I can recall) and said that this year is going to be far better then last year I said that I thought last year ended up with a happy ending...H smiled, kissed me again and said "YES IT DID".
Here is to an awesome year for ZOO and her H!!!
Hugz, Zoo
"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm."
- Mahatma Gandhi
WHY did I read all of this stuff about dreams... minding my own business...sleeping SOUNDLY... I had the worst nightmare last night. All about H and OW, involved LOTS of jewelry. I am hoping it was all of my insecurities coming to the top. I was feeling pretty good about things, too!
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
Shiny, you mention becoming aware in your dreams, that you are dreaming and going flying. I LOVE to do that!
Lately though, I've not been flying even when aware. The reason is that I'm consistently becoming aware of when I'm in my usual nightmare. Since I was 12 years old, I've had dreams of Tornados. (Now, I've never seen one in my life, cept on tv.) Usually, I'm aware of the impending danger and alert others. Sometimes they believe me and we seek cover. Sometimes they don't. A few times, I was in a car with the tornado in our rearview mirror. And one time, the car I was in, was actually lifted up for a short distance...we landed and got away. That's the closest the Tornado has ever come to getting me.
Lately, though, I've been able to become aware that I'm dreaming when the clouds start swirling. Once I'm aware, I do a little magic wave with my hand and the Tornado is never born.
I love being able to develop the skill of being aware within my dreams, and changing things. Does wonderful things for my ego! Lol.
A few nights ago, I was in the Tornado dream. There were a whole bunch of people with me. So, I just made a forcefield/elevator come up around us and take us safely below ground.
I am wondering if I should start another thread when this one locks up. I know we all post that at one time or another but since my M is essentially busted do I have the right to still post? Do people wonder what I am still doing here since things are going so well for me? I have the occasional "weirded-out" episode but...I feel self-conscious at times when I post about the good things. This feeling is part of the reason I don't post very often...the other being that sometimes I get too caught up in the other threads and sometimes get freaky on H I'm still not TOTALLY sure of myself though ... I have niggling little thoughts that I worry will undo me eventually
H surprised me yesterday. Something has caused him to break out in a horrible rash and welts (an allergic reaction obviously but we can't figure out to what and it hasn't responded to benadryl at all) so he is feeling pretty icky right now Of course, I am picking up on this and it has me feeling just as icky so I was sitting all huddled up in a ball on the edge of the couch. H asked if I was feeling ok and I said I was fine. H opens his arms up and nudges me and I asked him what he wanted He says "come here" so I crawled up beside him and he wraps his arms around me and hugs me real tight then starts stroking my face He then says " I love you babe...so very much...you just don't know." All I could do was bury my face in his shoulder to keep from crying.
I still don't know how to react when he does things like that. There are times when I think my reactions disappoint him too Sometimes I make some of my bigger mistakes when he is being so openly loving...my own insecurity coming out and questioning his sincerity? I am getting better at not making knee-jerk observations at times like this but I still slip up once in awhile I guess one good thing is tha I'm no longer falling down those cheeseless tunnels I was struggling with a month or so ago but how long is it going to take me to accept completely that H truly does mean what he is saying? That it ISN'T his being placating in a more convincing manner?
I desperately want this year to be the beginning of a whole new life for the two of us. I want us each to experience the joy and happiness in our M that neither one of us has ever known in our previous R's. I want this experience to bloom and grow and become something that neither one of us would willing let go of nor wantonly destroy. I want iron-clad guarantees but I'm too sadly aware that such things are pretty much non-existent or just empty words muttered because they sound good.
I guess I'm just greedy. I should be happy with what I have but darn it, I want so much more too.
Hugz, Zoo
"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm."
- Mahatma Gandhi
Well if you don't warrant a thread of your own what about me!?....OF course you belong here...Like I said on someone else's thread, maybe they'll create a forum for "busted M's....with normal growing pains!"
Until then, here I stay!
I think it is SOOO cool that you have "lucid dreams" (that's the official name for dreams in which you're aware you are dreaming).
The tornado dream is a common one...I've had them, CJ's had them, so has my Dad.
The idea is pretty basic...tornados, whirlwinds, chaos, out of control, danger, pain, things getting torn apart, displaced, swirled about....
We dream these when we feel overwhelmed, scared, ungrounded etc. How far away the storm is, how scared you are etc. all indicate how "near" the real life parallel is to you.
(For example, the one where the tornado picks up your car!!! that;s a close call! but I love that you land and all is fine!)
The ability to now CONTROL these tornadoes is VERY significant, Zoo...they suggest a waking parallel...greater sense of control over life's "storms" or any one "big" storm. I've done magic in my nightmares too...levitated and danced a boogy with Frankenstein in one as a child!
Holdingon...I'll just BET that all the reading about dreams, hearing about jewellery hear on the bb (I menitoned OW's diamond ring, Ellie got pearls etc) combined to cook up one heck of a nasty dream for you.
Dollars to donuts, however, it's just a nasty compilation of external info and your legit insecurities, anxieties, fears.
