Aver! Thanks friend! You are awesome, the GAL Queen! Plus an incredible set designer & lighter -- I bet your theatre group LOVE you - what a great way to GAL & give back.

Yes, well I knew this was coming. I've been sick (not too bad, sore throat) generally feeling crappy since Sunday, so I've lost time I planned to be looking at places. It will be very weird if I see him, & odds are I will, very soon. I have not seen him (or spoken to him) since Nov.

I had a dream about him the other night, & I realized I have kind of forgotten what he looks like, they way you can when you don't see somebody for a long time. It wasnt' a good dream, he was talking "at" me, the way he does now. Just the way you talk to a stranger. And that is realistic, & how he (& I have) have talked for a year now.

Yes, my one-year "bomb-aversary" (using Kara's term) was this past Saturday. One whole year since the bomb - March 14, 2009. Hard to believe it & in some ways it feels like many more years than that.

I sort of feel like I should be more progressed along than I am. But I guess in some ways I have. For me, I know the M is over. It took a long time to get to the point to say that. Now it feels like all that's left is cleaning up the wreckage. And it seems to take forever! Thanks to this board I know that's not all - time to go back to my goals, & really get back to working on myself. I want to be that strong independent LFA I was in my 30s (& 20s).

So, thanks for replying so fast Av. Yeah, it's his place too but I still think I'll let my L know. I don't think he's supposed to just be walking into the house anymore unannounced, as he hasn't lived there in a yr. Just in case...

There is about 20 (15?) feet between the house & the garage! In other words, spitting distance. One good thing, I think he works nights now. The dogs are gonna go nuts when they see he's there. Ugggghhhh!! I want to go curl up in a corner. I won't though. Going to see my C today - wonder what she'll have to say @ this.

The issue with staying w my bro is his dog hates my dogs - seemed like it would create a stressful environment. But now is looking like the lesser of 2 evils! I'm going to call him shortly & get his thoughts.

Thanks for coming by. I'll try to stop over your thread today. I'm on FB but it's such a dorky page - it's all about work - virtually no personal info & a horrible picture. I'll try to get on there today & look for you. (((()))))