Only 7 days until H returns, and I am finding it difficult to keeping my balance. Moving is disorienting. I'm trying to get all but the absolute necessities to my new place, but I need to stay in the marital home with the dog, so it feels like I live neither here nor there.
While I was filling out my change of address card yesterday, I was hit with a wave of pain and sadness. I guess because the last time I had a change of address, it was from my apartment to "our" new home when we married. I realize that my hurt is more about the loss of my hopes and dreams, rather than the loss of the reality of living with H.
I still can't come up with the what to say to H, (in an email). Although the thought of letting him discover I'm gone when he walks in the house, is appealing in a way, I don't think doing it that way would promote civil and cordial relations for the next phase. Any ideas? Maybe a limerick or haiku?
I'm trying to get all but the absolute necessities to my new place, but I need to stay in the marital home with the dog, so it feels like I live neither here nor there.
