feel free to read it to get a little info on us and our relationship. monday night, i was trying to get her to send me a nude cell phone picture of herself, which she wouldn't. i said please a couple times, then she went off on me. tuesday she wouldn't talk to me and acted mad at the world anywho, we work at the same place, but her schedule is a couple hours earlier than mine. we often e-mail back and forth. this is an e-mail from tuesday night at work. i started off by sending her a link to a dress i thought she might like.
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Her: Cute, but I’m afraid that style wouldn’t be flattering on me. I tried on something similar at kohls the other day and it looked bad. Anyway, are you done being pissy?
Me: Thought it was worth a shot. I wasn’t being pissy Missy.
Her: YES you were!! You said I hate you because I refused you a stupid picture. I have a feeling you were not joking. That is being pissy, and it’s sad that over a picture, that by the way I would be COMPLETELY uncomfortable with, you got all shitty with me.
Me: And for the record, you could have just said you weren’t comfortable with it and it would have been fine. Instead you just made it sound like you just didn’t want to do it to be mean.
Her: Well, how many times have you asked me and how many times have I said no? This should indicate that I am not comfortable with it. If you need me to spell it out, fine, it’s spelled out. You aren’t getting one unless you take it with the nice cam and I don’t have to look at it. You are definitely not getting one on your phone. I got shitty because I said no like twelve times and you kept asking and acted like you were going to take things away if I didn’t do it. That’s not the way to get a good response, treating me like a child kinda like “if you don’t eat all your food, you can’t play with your toys” type of bullshit. I don’t respond well to that in any scenario. Just FYI.
Me: Sorry, I just thought it was something personal against me. I didn’t know it was such an issue. I would love to take some nice pictures with the camera at home, but you won’t let me do that either. I just happen to love your body and I love looking at it.
Her: You always think everything I do is something personal against you. Usually, if it has to do with me and my body, it’s something personal against me. I’m not one of those people that is completely comfortable with the way I look, as if I don’t say it enough for you to have figured that out by now. I will let you, we can do it this weekend if you want. Whatever, but that [censored] is getting photoshopped to hell and back if I have anything to say about it. You can’t keep any pictures I don’t like… which will probably be 75% of what is taken.
Me: Well it’s just the way it’s communicated. It seems like it’s personal towards me, not you. I would love it if you’d let me take some. I just wish you’d have a better view on your own body. There is nothing wrong with it at all, just so you know. Everyone can find something they don’t like about themselves, myself included. But I don’t beat myself up over it.
Her: Yeah, you just beat me up about it instead. You don’t love me, you don’t want me, you don’t think I’m hot, you think I’m ugly, you this and you that… because of your own insecurities.
Me: I don’t say that stuff because I think you look bad!
Her: No, you say that stuff because of how you feel about YOU… and you blame me for it.
Me: I’m just telling you how I honestly feel. It’s not because of how I feel about myself. It’s how I feel that you feel about me.
Her: Whatever you say… you will think that regardless, unless I have sex with you every day. I can’t change the way I am… if you can’t handle it then I’m sorry.
Me: I really don’t want to get into this right now.
