NEON RED is GO for Launch!

[Zoo]

Hi Jeanine,

The thought eventually crossed my mind that perhaps H reacted the way he did due to the stress of the situation, the fact that he was hungry and very tired. I managed to finally console myself with the very thoughts that you expressed in your post. H isn't any more happy about the sitch then I am and that unhappiness played itself out last night. H is not one of those people who expresses his emotions well and he tends to internalize things far too much...he is even worse then I am about it Yes, we have both been working on this aspect of ourselves but neither one of us was "all the way home" yet.

I am very afraid that H will start distancing himself now. It is a protective measure that he utilized quite well in these situations. He did it when he went to Kosovo (he was part of the first wave in). He is not "warm and fuzzy" about going into a combat sitch and leaving family behind. He is not "warm and fuzzy" about the combat sitch at all

I'll get through this the best that I can...my worry is not about myself so much as it is about H. I know we aren't suppose to look at it that way but right now that is the way it is for me.

Hugz,
Zoo