Thanks newmama... i cant say there isnt a part inside of me that would do just about anything to have him back... ironically I dont believe in divorce and believe we do have what it takes to make our marriage work... but im the only one fighting and it gets to be really depressing and is just plain awful. My H was one of those guys that absolutely everyone loved and put on a pedestal... he was just a good soul... this is so unlike him and it scares me to death and hurts me to see him throwing his life away and being so self destructive...
i wake up every day and pray it was all a nightmare... unfortunately the D papers forced me to wake up and start taking care of my self and my baby...
so amazing that this unborn soul has given me so much stregnth...
