Invinceable

[dday101798]

Hi mish,

Sorry to hear the bad news.

Chin up and remember, challanges only make us stonger!

[mishka422]

Then I should be freakin' superwoman by now! These 'challenges' are wearing me down completely.

We are now 7.5 hours into the ER visit. They are admitting her but that is as far as we've gotten. They were supposed to be doing dialysis today in the ER for her but they never were able to get the machine down there. They have her room assigned but it's not ready yet so we are stuck here. I'm freezing, tired,sore from sitting on this rock hard chair all day, and STARVING. I've had a yogurt and banana this morning before I went to my office to get some paperwork done and mom's broccoli from the dinner they brought her. That's it and I feel like I'm going to keel over but I can't leave the ER or it's an act of congress to get back in through the security.

UGH! Mom has been asleep most of the day. All I can say is thank God for Wi-Fi in the hospital.

[MichelleLT]

We like you having wi-fi too!

Vending machines have to be around. And if you are nice to the guard going out and let them know you'll be right back I wouldn't think it would be that difficult. Is your security really that strict?

[karen43]

Mish, so sorry to hear about your mom. I hope they do keep here there for a few days; with all that's going on hopefully they will. Please take care of yourself as much as possible! (((((Mish)))))))

[ClingingToHope]

Oh hospital trips are soooo much fun.

[mishka422]

Thankfully they moved her to a room 10 minutes after I posted that and as soon as we got there the dialysis team came to take her to treatment so I was able to leave.

I have to admit, I stopped for fast food on the way home and I didn't make a great choice but tomorrow is another day. I'm off work tomorrow but have an IEP for Marc in the morning. I'm planning my food for the day so I can be prepared and not end up starving by the time I get out of the hospital tomorrow.

On another note, Marc told Gabe I was at the hospital with my mom and he texted me asking what was going on. I gave him a very brief answer, no elaborating. He then told me that apparently Marc's friend was coming to the house to 'do schoolwork'. This friend wouldn't be doing schoolwork with Marc because they are not in any academic classes together, not even in the same grade. I told Gabe that Marc knows the rules are that he does not have anyone at the house if I'm not home so Gabe decided he was coming to the house to check on Marc. Fine by me. What bugged me though was that I called Marc later to find out what he was doing and he told me that he and his dad were cleaning his room. Great, Gabe is in my house without anyone else there to buffer and keep him from getting into my business. Not that I think he would, it's not high on his priority list. Just bugged me. I called Marc on my way home from the hospital to tell him that I would stop to pick up food and would be home in 15 minutes. He said Gabe was still here. I swear, I prayed all the way home that Gabe wouldn't be here when I got home. Danged if he wasn't still here and driving the broom's car too. Even that irked me.

He stood in my house, in my hallway outside of my bedroom talking to Marc in front of me and looking sideways at me. I couldn't look him in the eyes. It still hurts. When will it just stop? I'm so tired of feeling anything when he is around. Of course, I'd prefer if he just weren't around.

[ClingingToHope]

Every once in a while a big, huge burger with all the fixins is just what the doctor ordered. You'll just have to do more laps around the island on the Wii.

You may have to have a talk with Marc. At first, I found a lot of reasons to be at W's house. Now, I don't want to be there and I've kind of had to gradually tell the girls why when they ask.

[mishka422]

Gabe took this upon himself to show up and check on Marc. It led to him staying for 4 hours to clean Marc's room. What exactly do I talk to Marc about? Tell him he has to tell his dad to leave? Tell him that he is not allowed to spend time with his dad, helping him with his chores because I'm too danged screwed up to just allow it? Not cool.

Marc is 15. He can make his own choices. My personal feelings about it aren't important. I need to just suck it up and shut up about it.

[ClingingToHope]

I don't know. He's old enough perhaps to have you say you are uncomfortable with Gabe just showing up.

That's a tough one. I can't remember my dad ever stepping foot inside my grandmother's house after the D. They're both gone so I can't ask why.

[MichelleLT]

I agree that Marc would probably understand it if you said you were uncomfortable with Gabe being there for so long.

I also understand not wanting to put Marc in the middle, nor discourage Gabe and Marc from seeing each other.

A tough balancing act.

I totally understand you not wanting to see him though. I do SO much better with NC. It's just so much easier.