tells me today that he's off from work at 4:30 and we will see if he's coming over. did he? what do you think? NOPE!
i've been trying to balance both kidos and daily house tasks. it's hard most definetely. i can feel my resentment for h building with every time son is tired and crying for 15 mins, when i start dinner and have to stop, when d2.5 doesn't understand why i can't carry her and son at the same time.
my personal goals
1. first thing of day get daughter bathed me showered and son dressed 2. in a few weeks when son little bit older- 1 outing a day with both kids(ive done some to the store and walmart)
here is a decision i'm debating:
Should go ahead and file for divorce? i feel like if i keep putting it off it is like i'm just waiting around for h to wake up. honestly if he hasn't by now with both kids how in the world will he ever? if he did dealing with all the resentment, new resentment and anger i have for him?
Me 39 H 30 d 18 previous marriage d 2.5 with H s 4.5months with H Seperation Nov09 july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline
