Better Days

[ClingingToHope]

Bill, what I can't get used to is everything has an ulterior motive during this time. W tells me she's going after full child support because she can't afford the house at the same time she's started looking for a new place.

Me ... in a way, I'm no better. Since we don't have an afterschool sitter hired yet I've stayed home with the girls both days. Today was great. Three hours playing in the creek, going for a walk in the park, cleaning trash from the woods (their idea) and then finally walking them to their mom's.

But when push comes to shove at mediation, I'm going to use this week as an example of how I can adjust my schedule to fit their needs while W can't and therefore deserve at least joint physical custody.

I know we haven't really been a team for a long, long time and things are going to get much tenser between us once she gets my counter-proposal, but I really, really longed for the partnership today.

When I walked away after dropping the girls off my heart was just aching and I was wondering if there was any part of W that was hurting as I walked away. Unfortunately, I think the answer is no.

So I don't know if I envy you -- the feelings still being there and the occasional night together -- or pity you because the detachment may take longer.