Following FIB's thread, I find I feel fortunate that we avoided court, and that W offered the support arrangement that she did. I've got some things to be thankful for.
V1olin - I'm not sure if the the sex is the problem or the symptom. It has not been frequent by any means. But it needs to stop. There is a part of me that still doesn't get it, that still feels married to her. And there's a part of her that, by her admission, still feels married to me. And we still fall into that space. The boundaries are up a little more since the settlement stuff has happened though.
Yeah, CTH, there are so many things that can produce that feeling of hate. The truth us, once that partnership breaks, there's no reason for W to disclose the things that are her business anymore. But it's difficult to get your head around, we're not making decisions as partners any longer.
I don't know what to think of the future. It's still hard to entirely digest what it's going to be like, just kind of DOING the steps to take me there.
Today's her birthday. Spring's coming, our anniversary is in June, it's hard not to think of the trips we've taken to Hawaii in this time of the year.
Didn't sleep well last night due to a variety of factors, feel that "wigging out" feeling beneath the surface today. Nothing too bad. Just need to get some sleep tonight.
OK I don't have that much more that is meaningful to say. Have a good and peaceful night, all.
