Thank you Opt and Cathy

I did validate H and tell him that I appreciated his honesty...it didn't make ME feel any less sad though I still can't help looking at it from the point of view that he is giving himself a pretty good OUT by living it like that. Then, IF it does happen again he can say that he made me no promises or guarantees and will use that to condone his behaviour so he can live with himself easier then he did the last time. It is almost like he just doesn't want to take responsibility for any of his actions...he STILL vehemently claims the A "just happened"! OW asked him if he wanted to and he obliged her How can that NOT leave things open for that scenario to play out again?

I do the best that I can every day to keep HOME a place he wants to be. I know that that is all I can do and hope it works for the best. I THOUGHT I was doing that before though and look where that got me

I should be HAPPY that my R is better then it ever has been...I should be able to shrug off those little "things" that I see that were clues to what happened the last time. I drive myself nuts because I can't cut through the emotional BS and look at it from my usual logical viewpoint. Too much darn "what-if"

Zoo


"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm." - Mahatma Gandhi