Ok, need your advice, quick! It's almost 1 and he will be here soon.
For those of you that are on FB you may have seen that I've been feeling weird today. I think I posted here too. I feel like my blood is pumping and I get dizzy, and my heart seems to be missing beats. It feels ...scary. So, a few minutes ago, I checked H's email. There is a message from a girl with the subject "Our chat this morning at 9:50, 16/3/2010" "You sounded really down today, you want to tell me what is going on?". This is a girl I know works in the same building with him. I have asked him before about her during discussions about things being open between us, not keeping people excluded from each other as a way to enhance US vs the world and he told me she is a just girl he knows, an aquantaince.
Clearly, she is at least a friend. The reason I asked about her months ago was because she had been senting him funny youtube videos and one of them adressed only to him which felt ...weird.
So, what do I do? Do I ask about her? I want to use this incident to make him unerstand that unless I am a part of his life, not excluded from new friends and all, as long as interested women dont get a clear message he is with me now, I cant relax. I sense she is interested, I had this feeling the first time I saw her name and he had trouble figuring out who I was talking about. I dont want to let this go.
I am wise enough to listen to my voice. Not making up excuses for him. I think this is what I have been feeling all day. I wonder if I am in front of another disclosure. Anything is probable in this life.
I know if I dont say anything, he will erase the email. Thoughts?
