NEON RED is GO for Launch!

[Zoo]

Thank you all for the TG greetings! {{{{{to all}}}}}

H and I had a wonderful holiday...probably the best we have ever had We spent most of the holiday with family and finally had yesterday to ourselves which for the most part went well

I won't say that everything was perfect...I started to dive headfirst down a cheeseless tunnel (convo was initiated by H)yesterday but as soon as the edginess started creeping in to H's voice I backed off. I then waited for H to initiate further convo on what I hoped would be a different subject After about 10 minutes of silence he did and we were Ok then. I did spend the rest of the day feeling kind of sad...not down in a funk depressed but weary and just SAD.

The "tunnel" was the A I told H my point of view about some of the things he said and that those things brought the idea up to me that it was too possible that H might do the same thing again. H said he "liked to think that he wouldn't" but then, he had thought that before and it did, so he didn't KNOW if he wouldn't do it again This is when the edginess started to creep in. H said he was only being honest with me,like I asked him to, rather then placate me as he did before. I didn't really get angry or upset by this but the idea of the possibility saddened me greatly H did say that he no longer had any doubts about "US" and thought that "we' were just getting better all of the time so I spent the rest of the day clinging to that little bit to keep myself from totally downturning.

H knew there was something up though I was mostly quit the rest of the night.

More later,
Zoo