Wife lost her love for me - my story

[TomLost Love]

Forgot to mention that the next night - last night - we had a conversation where I suggested maybe she could move to Florida as she is planning with my D11 when house is sold, alone for awhile and leave D11 with me in NY. I actually was thinking about my D11 and how she is dead set against moving to FL with W and very upset about it. I thought maybe if W went first, established a residence, set it up, that D11 might miss her after a month and then WANT to go. Of course W exploded and suggested I was trying to take daughter away and she would go to court, etc., etc., etc. There was absolutely no reasoning with her and it didn't go well. I've said it here in my thread before, and I've seen it said in other threads - but I truly do not know this person anymore. There is a part that is still with our lives and our kids, and a part that is cold, heartless, and like nobody I've ever known. Again - I know I have to go on and be strong, but when I walk away I am really hurting inside. I know I have a lot of distance and detachment to go thru - this road is truly a dark, dismal and unforgiving place. I made myself as ready as I could, and I know its still going to get worse for me, but boy was Sandi right about things and whether I was man enough to face this. I have a lot more respect for all those ahead of me on this journey who made it thru - it is truly an emotional hell to face each day. Still planning to get to the DivorceCare support group tonight - I need some people face time who like you all out there - understand the pain and the struggle.......