The only thing I can add to this is it would be helpful for you to EXPECT the rollercoaster so it won't slam you so hard every day. During this time when things are up in the air, you can go up and down every day and it feels awful. And then the next day you feel totally different. It is a very jarring and scary experience at times. That's why people here say they are working on "detaching" from their spouse's drama. They can still love their spouse and decide to be open to working on themselves and their marriages for a certain amount of time, but they have to try to get off the rollercoaster as best they can. Just knowing it is a rollercoaster can help with that. You are not crazy. It is normal. You will be angry one day, sad the next, happy the next, bitter the next, hopeful the next, and then the whole cycle repeats. !!!! Which means tomorrow always might be a happy and hopeful day. Or a bitter one. LOL.