How do I act?

[Surviving03]

Yeah, well I have been going to counseling but it doesnt help really that EVERYONE i talk to, including the 3 different counselors have said things to me like you really just have to wait and see how he is when he comes home... it could be a whole different story...ok I held on to that hope for almost what 6 weeks now? Not getting any better, he is only making further steps out the door. And I am certain that he is just trying to play nice right now so this doesnt turn ugly but has NO intentions of EVER changing his mind... how do i sit in the same house as him?? maybe even sleep in the same bed?? I think I will ask him to take the couch. It is my bed anyways, and something he said i could take with me as a result of this divorce, all he wanted were the couches and the TV, so go for it, have your lovely couches. Man, life sucks! he sucks! and being here in Turkey sucks! I dont want to go home either though, to my parents, because they live where we got married and i just dont want all the freakin reminders all around me.

Aces, my H was telling me he couldnt wear his wedding ring cause he was losing so much weight over in Iraq, and I believed him at first...not too sure anymore! I really wonder if any of this has to do with his weight loss, he went over there weighing almost 230 lbs... he is 5'11.... and it was not muscle.... and then lost a ton of weight and is now in his ideal weight bracket for his height.... prob thinks he is hot stuff now and heard a lot of compliments... who was with him when he wasnt all skinny???? ME! I want to try to drag this D out, or ask him to wait to file for a several months, because I am going to lose all of my health benefits and that would include me being able to continue to seek counseling, I have to move and will have no job and when the D is final, i will have nothing... i want to contest it just to drag it out but not sure if thats a good idea?