How do I act?

[Surviving03]

hmm... my H apologized to me today for everything... and wished me a happy birthday tomorrow... what more could i say than just "yup"...sorry my ass! Now i find out that his cousin, who he is VERY close to is going thru this with her new H, she told me she plans on drilling my H when he comes home to visit in a couple weeks cause she knows how I feel and that she knows that he will not find anyone better... could be helpful as him and her are very very close and he would listen to her, prob wont change his mind at all, but I am hoping that some of his family expresses their disappointment in him when he goes home. Even if it just makes me feel guilty enough to think about it for even just a minute... I heard a term today that I really HATE that I am going to be.... A STARTER WIFE! ewwwwww!! I do not want to be anyones starter wife! My H has been telling EVERYONE that he is "going thru a divorce" he just brings it up to people like its just no big deal... I almost feel like he is bragging about it to people....its just sickening.... and devastating! since when did the person I married not take marriage seriously?