Ok...so I write all of those positives right? Things can only be deemed "good" in my R at this point in time, right?

Then WHY did I have to go and have one of those DOH! moments?

I don't have runaway thoughts...I have runaway MOUTH!

I had to go and bring up OW tonight I, um, experienced and odd moment, which I won't go into, and I ended up asking H about it. H didn't get upset or anything...at least not while he was here...and answered my question very matter-of-factly but still! I thought I was getting that crap under control!

I'm venting here folks, about me of all things!

I just seem to be experiencing a great deal of self-anger right now for some reason. When I say a great deal I mean rightous, "hell hath no fury", "I want to hit someone and hurt them" kind of anger. I can't see me hitting myself though so I am STUCK trying to find another way to dump it before H comes back home.

I tried losing myself in other threads but I could feel this "Yuck" just growing...I'm starting to wonder if I'm not going a little nuts here?

AAAAARRRGHHHHH!

I could bounce my head off the wall a few times but the last time I did that I got a headache and had to fix the wall...aw hell, even thinking about doing that is friggin stupid

Is this some form of aftermath psychosis that someone for got to warn me about??

Damn and double DAMN!

Don't worry about it folks...I get over these things usually I just needed to express it somehow

Thanks,
Zoo

"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm." - Mahatma Gandhi