Are U saying that she is a crappy person or are you. In either case neither of you are crappy people. Keep your thoughts positive. Positive.
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I'm trying to focus on me but it is hard.
Yes it is hard but YOU can do it. Stop thinking of the future and take it ONE day at a time. One day at a time.
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I am trying to keep my expectations low but again that is so hard when I see her everyday.
Maybe you should try and look at it from a different perspective. Maybe you should consider that she does see you everyday and so you have a chance to SHOW her your changes. This sounds a little more positive don't ya think?
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I really feel uncomfortable around my parents and I know it makes them worry but being at their house for an extended amount of time makes me feel like they are looking at me through a microscope.
Then stop trying to be someone else - don't worry about what they think - do YOU like your changes? Your really the only one that matters at this point. Stop trying to live for everyone else and live for yourself. May sound a little selfish but it is not. Just work on YOU - what do YOU want that does not involve your W? Look deep you will find the answer.
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I wish I had the ability to just bust out of this low, I was feeling so good last week and I honestly don't know why I was, especially with how I feel right now.
Look dude your human - be gentle on yourself - cut yourself a little slack man. Your gonna have those up and downs but you need to find a way to control them. Pray, go for a walk, work out do something. But PLEASE>>> be gentle on yourself just don't let her see you struggling.
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I wish doing things kept my mind off of things but really all it does is make me think of her more and how much I want to be with her.
Once again you are normal - you've just experienced major shock - cut your self some slack. Now let me ask you a question....would you prefer to wallon in sorrow or pick yourself up like the man that you are and move forward? Which one is it Wild - I know the answer do you?
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I want her to wake the f up and stop acting so different.
You cannot make her wake up by begging and pleading but you MAY wake her up by being the man that you want to be. Your actions need to be consistent.
Keep your head up dude - you can make it and you WILL make it. Just know this.
If you want...look me up on the alt.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
