She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

[tbart01]

Man robx how correct you are. I have been spending this entire time knowing I had flaws, but not understanding why my wife would want to leave me. Today for the first time i understand. My jealousy has caused her to back off from having friends. After seeing how I acted this morning, i see it as clearly as I ever have.

Since I've been deployed it's allowed her to talk to people she felt she couldn't talk to because of my jealousy. She's been going to friends and hanging out with friends. This woman has never given me a reason to not trust her, and this is what i put her through.

i have been making improvements in myself, but I really need to work on not being so jealous. i don't want to be needy, but right now i am because of what I'm going through and where i am. At the same time i truly feel for my W.

i want so badly to shed these insecurities. i want to be trusting. these things will make me a better person to anyone. i don't blame her for feeling isolated. i may not have come out and told her not to do these things, by my actions and reactions have showed her otherwise.

I fear my actions of today have solidified our fate before i even get home. I was feeling really good about myself until i slipped up big time today. i don't feel sorry for myself, but i sure am angry as hell at myself.