I guess what it comes down to is I'm scared. There, I said it, I'm scared. How pathetic.
I know standing up to her at the right times will improve me whether she decides to stay or not. It's hard putting into action, though. I can detach somewhat. I can act as if somewhat. I don't talk about R or the future anymore. I understand a lot of the DB principals but can't get over the hump. I know what I need to do but worry about pushing her out the door. It would be a big 180 for me to do this and I am working on it. Why should I worry about her leaving, she's gone already.
I'm scared. I hate admitting it with all the good advice I've been given, but there it is.
