Just Keep Livin' #3

[JKL2009]

I feel sorry for my WAW. It has been almost a year since she dropped the bomb, even longer since she felt that way (according to her), and yet very little has changed for her in that time.

This weekend was S's birthday, and we had a great party. Even the WAW and I had a lot of fun together, playing around with kids at the playland thing we had the party. That evening, things go a bit worse.

We had a little quiet time and got to talking, and I brought up that we needed to get an agreement signed since we have yet to do that, and that I wanted to spend more time with S (right now I have him 1 night a wk and every other weekend). This did not go over well. Sadly, it was not about what is best for S, what WAW said was "he is all I have and you want to take him away from me more" and "you never cared before so why do you want to be such a good father now." She constantly tells me she sees change in me and what a better father I am now, yet she has had no change herself and admits she is still miserable. And now, even though she says I didn't let her have a life before, she wants to make being with her S her entire life.

I wanted to discuss more, but she was getting to upset. Today I get an email saying "just send me the changes you want and we can go from there; I am too busy to talk this week and I think it would just be too upsetting for me to meet you to talk."

I care about this woman, but she just is still so in the fog that I am really concerned. How is she ever going to get better? Why won't she get any help? It is just sad and a shame.