The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Feeling strangely guilty this morning. So much of yesterday I felt as if W was "The Enemy."

It was six months ago that I thought this would all eventually work out. It was three months ago that I still thought we had a chance.

Now we're adversaries in the courts.

I went to sleep thinking about our wedding day. That was a great day. I had worries before hand because of her family. But I truly thought we were a fairy tale, made for each other, on our wedding day.

I was the crazy outgoing type who needed someone to keep me grounded. She was the shy withdrawn type who needed someone to draw her out.

I'm not sure when it started to go downhill, but I see now how hopeless this all is.

I think the time with the attorney and reading about FIB's day has made me sentimental.

But the reality is the person I married doesn't exist anymore, as I've read in so many other sitchs. The mother of my children is the one who greeted me last night with a frown and ice-cold eyes as I dropped D11 off from dinner.