Had a conversation with W over the weekend. She told me she had not felt love for me for years - didn't love me, didn't want to touch me, etc. As much as I tried to take it all in and show indifference - I was bursting at the seams and holding back tears like I've never felt in my life. It was like getting beat up all over again. I'm taking one day at a time right now - very depressed about it. I'm trying to see the light, trying to be strong - but right now I feel so hopeless about us, and am feeling there is no chance for an "us" anymore. Not thinking of GAL right now - just want to get out of this rut I am in. Am going to try to get to a DivorceCare support group tonight. This is definitely a trying time for me right now.
Me: 48 W: 47 M: 25 years T: 30 years S24, D21, D11 Bomb dropped: "Not in love with you" 10/09 Separated Feb 2010
