It has to be drilled into my head. The quote should read, "I hate being a passive guy." I never used to be this way. Just since having kids, I guess. I feel stupid too, FM.
I know being a great dad doesn't make me a great husband, believe me.
I am still feeling my way around this whole mess that I helped create. I'm trying to learn and read as much as I can so I don't make things worse with my actions.
I do certain things and it goes good for awhile. Then it goes back to crap. I've been told she's testing me. Keep doing what works. How do I know when to do what. Do I say to her, "until we work this out one way or the other, I don't want you doing x,y,z. You need to find a sitter for whatever because I'm busy."
Does it really all come down to me standing up to her?