Moving on with my life #2

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Dang! Physically I am being hit hard this week. Besides baby's medical issue this weekend that caused little sleep, the time change, and now I have a cold! I feel like I got hit by a truck. I have been able to function on almost no sleep for awhile now, but this week I feel horrible. I hope it passes soon. I haven't been able to get up to study in 2 days.

Exh sent some texts in the morning yesterday..

Exh: How is baby today?
Me: She is getting better.
Exh: I am sorry I wasn't there.
Me: Me too. It was awful.
Exh: I am so sorry.

I didn't respond from there. He apologized and it couldn't go anywhere from there but me telling him it was ok he was MIA. That is most likely what he wanted. I know he feels like crap for not being there, let alone not remembering the call. Sad thing is it won't change him. He will feel bad for a few days and then go right back to where he was.

Then last night he sent a funny text! Funny because he was trying to cover himself:

Exh: How is baby now?
Me: She is ok.
Exh: Ok, well I will be at home all night alone if you need me.
Me: Ok.

HAHA! Too little too late exh! You have put your ****, your ego, and your beer ahead of baby and missed the important things with her.

Oh, btw! He missed his visit yesterday. No call. No text until later last night. But no explanation of why he missed.

Babys bday is next week. I spent the past few days remembering the last few months of my pregnancy and how I was feeling with her. I was so excited! At this point of the pregnancy things were good with exh..he was holding it together for the most part. Didn't last long though. Looking back. I should have just done all of this on my own without him..I don't know why I thought marriage was going to change him. Then when I got pregnant, I was even more stupid to think a child would change him.

Ok, need lots of coffee. Beautiful day here today! In the 80's!