Starting Over (Again)

[Cautious]

Thanks for not throwing stones, fm. I just can't bear the thought... but I do know that I will live through it and it will only get easier. What won't get easier is waiting for ExCautious to come out of denial.

I feel sorry for him in a way. He doesn't have a single real friend or family. He only has himself, since he lies and denies his own life to everyone around him. But I'm not enabling that behavior. And, again, if his dad or BF ask, I'll tell them the truth. It's the best favor I can do for him, the way I see it. Once he's exposed to the people who have been there for him, he'll have to start answering for his own actions and he'll have to REALLY deal with life.

But if they don't ask, there's no reason for me to push the envelope again.