He came over, went in my D7 room with her and spilled his heart out, sobbing and all, apologizing to her...then my S5 was next. Trying to make a true commitment to them this time for night time calls and we will set a schedule.
We will see I guess? I of course ended up making dinner, not judging, being PISSED OFF, only filled with compassion for someone I am in love with that is HURTING so badly inside and won't let me near him.... So, I love him from a distance...
I still don't get it...not trying to figure it out anymore its just WOW, the changes from week to week, he can seem so Happy and Good and life couldnt be better and then this, just crying so hard can't even talk, has no idea what is going on with him, says he is a HEAD CASE right now and can't get a grip, cant understand why everything is spiraling out of control...?
I'm like, "thinking silently to myself, what you thing our Dear Lord is going to Bless You abundantly when you have done this to us, abandon us, divorcing me, etc...?" Hello! You will reap what you sow.... Sad part is he still doesn't get it. He still thinks divorcing me is going to be his solution. Another woman will make ALL THAT PAIN go away...NO WAY!
I guess it's that time when you say, I will sit back and watch him crash and burn...as I know that is where he is headed.... I will love him and pray for him... I feel so Helpless.... but I know God is in control...
I love this place. I love that I can feel something, experience something, and get on here and share.... Thank you for listening!
