still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

Tonight I told WH there were some sandwich fixins in the fridge and left for 4.5 mile walk while I talked on the phone to my friend.

Then I returned, made some sugar free chocolate pudding (cook and serve) with some berries and whipped cream, then sat with my laptop while WH rocked S to sleep. He fell asleep too! haha

Well he was limping and said he was feeling pretty sore. I accidentally slipped into TLC mode but caught myself- whoops! Old habits are hard to break! So he put S to bed and came back to sit on the couch. I told him he could get going so he can rest (since he was limping and wincing) and suggested he take a vicadin tonight.

So he said he wouldn't be over tomorrow so he could rest and then I told him that I was still figuring out if I had plans Fri or Sat night- could I get back to him by Wed? He said "whenever you get back to me it's fine!" Guess he doesn't have plans with OW, lol!

Certainly not getting it on...in fact I wonder if...ahem..getting aroused is painful in some way due to his sore "ball!" His incision above his upper thigh was what was bothering him tonight....he let me know!

So tonight I feel good about being busy and then encouraging him to leave...like I was pushing him away! But I was also kind with providing leftovers in the fridge and TLC attention so to me, it was the perfect balance.

Oh and another thing: at first he said he wasn't sure about Wed and I said "what? you would be gone 2 days in a row? What about switching Tues and Wed nights then? Unless you had plans" (St. Patty's day) and he said "Oh no, no..I can do Wed. I need a day to let my incision rest."

I couldn't help but think about how he HATES CROWDS and we never ever went out on St. Patty's day due to the hectic bar scene but OW is totally into that whole thing! Gee if he is over here with his S, he has a good excuse to not go with her!