H didn't come over tonight because he said he didn't want to get sink from S. He skype-video called and it was hard for me. S was so sad and kept saying how much he missed H and loved him. I broke down and said I missed him too - no response of course. It just killed me and so did seeing his apt. I had to get up and leave the room. I wish he would hop off the darn fence and come back to us. Really sad on this anniversary of the bomb. No mention of it from either of us. H only complained to me about how much work he has and how going to MC alone (I had ot stay home with S) was sort of helpful but not $100 helpful. It would be nice to hear something beside complaints.
