I picked up S9 from xMIL's this evening for cub scouts. xW was there, in the background. Once we were out S9 spilled the beans: xW and OM got married on Saturday down in Myrtle Beach.
It explains a lot.
On the way to the den meeting I asked S9 a couple of questions, to get a few details. Who was there (few family). Was it a church wedding (no). That sort of stuff, then I dropped it and said no more.
S9 asked something a few minutes later about that day. I asked him how he felt about it. He said he wasn't sure, then asked me in turn. I tried to smile bravely and shrugged my shoulders. I then said his mother getting M'ed to OM was utterly meaningless. She has embraced D as her life's solution to problems, and thus M has no real, honest meaning to her. She had said as much herself, not in so many words, but that was her meaning. So by the same token I don't see where all the fuss is. I then told S9 that he will need to make up his own mind about these things.
I changed the subject to the topic of tonight's den meetings (a community service project to build bat houses to help control insect populations). And so I thought we had put these conversations behind us for now.
After the den meeting, S9 and I again talked. We had a good and busy meeting so I was able to forget all about this weekend's farcical events. But S9 mentioned that OM was now staying at xW's apartment. I told S9 that agan, their M was none of my concern, for the prime reason that they were two people who held no value in M in the first place, at least not beyond a thinly applied social and financial veneer.
I once again changed the topic to something else, I told S9 that he needed to get a good night's rest tonight, as he and his class are taking the ITBS exams tomorrow. That seemed to throw him off the trail, and I was able to deliver S9 back to his mother's doorstep without further word on this disturbing subject matter.
But then S5 ran to the door to give me a hug (in his pajamas) and the first words out of his mouth were that OM was staying there with his mommy. Sheesh! LOL.
xW is such a coward. She wouldn't look me in the eye. So typical. And so pathetically funny.
Driving home I am thinking, well, the other shoe has finally dropped. And I have already written her off as the lost cause she is. I will say nothing at all to her about this. Why should I? Like I said before, her getting M'ed, given all the insane things she's said to me these last three years about how she views M in general and our M in particular, is absolutely meaningless. I cannot acknowledge or respect their union because of who they are and what they have done. I will not do so. After all, neither of them had even so much as an ounce of respect for my M to my (then) W, so why on earth should I observe their M? It is only a matter of time -- and the clock is now ticking -- before either or both of them cheat on the other and again make an absolute mockery of the one institution of Man created by God himself.
I do hurt still. Somewhat. I admit that it does still sting, and I will no doubt ponder the road ahead and the insanity of all this senseless foolishness we do to ourselves. But then part of me feels that rush of freedom it also offers. I can finally mourn the loss of who she had been or only perhaps had been (for who really knows for certain if she had ever been real or not), and then move forward.
I just wish for my kids sake they never had to see any of this. It's just so unfair to them.
