So, I had emailed him earlier about this issue and him breaking his daughters spirit etc...
He called and left a vm sobbing... claiming he is really NOT HIMSELF, cant figure out what is wrong, has been a prick to everyone lately, he apologized for being ugly with me etc, said there is no excuse, he is just a horrible Daddy and he cant bare it feels like if he stays away it would be better on the children but then doesnt feel that way, says he is so confused... and was just a stark raving MESS....
But yet last week or 2 weeks ago, he was GOOD! Happy! All was well since he left in Dec etc..? What in the world....what, is he finally understanding that leaving me and divorcing me wont make all your demons go away, their internal, hello!!!
He says while crying it makes him feel horrible for hurting me too... UGH!!! I just listened and LET HIM HURT, HE NEEDS to FEEL it....
I told Him, I pray for you, I always pray, I know there is nothing I can do for you to help you, I know you see me as your problem, but then he even claims he is struggling with staying sober.... SO ITS NOT ME that made him USE,..... he has been gone 3 months and I NEVER bother/bug/text/call/ nada!!!
I am just like WOW right now.... What in the world is happening to the loves of our lives!!!
