New here but have been a voyeur

[luvless]

(((Lola))))

I'm so close to where you're at...and what you are feeling right now even though I haven't even started the D process. I too want the house and also wake up and wonder if this is a bad dream. I look at him and wonder who he is and if "we" were what I thought "we" were. It's so weird.

I think about what my H has done and how the respect and love is gone too. How do you recover from that? Is it that we can't see past it right now or is it how we'll always feel? It's a scary feeling either way.

I just needed you to know I empathize from a very close place.

Luv