Aver, You know you shouldn't feel guilty. But it's like my wondering if it's OK to ask H to pay 1/2 the L fees. I understand the ambivalence of not being sure if you want the house, but please stop feeling guilty!! He may have put his heart & all that into it, but he readily left it didn't he?
I hear you on the mainenance, as you know it's a major reason I want out of my house. If you can afford to pay someone to do the lawn, & other stuff, and maybe get $$ from a tenant then that could take care of those issues.
But I think maybe now that keeping the house is within your reach, you can really separate out your motives, and what you want. What is the very best thing for you? If staying in the house is what will make you happiest, and let you heal, or is starting new in a different town? I don't have any great wisdom but I wanted to let you know I'm here & trying(!) to keep up w you. ((((Aver)))))
