Will I ever be forgiven???

[TrentC]

He is in a much better place now with a woman that (from what I have heard) is a great person. for that i am grateful.

Let me just say, as a LBS, that I am happy that you had your "awakening". I hope that means you will be able to heal yourself, even if it is too late for your former marriage.

In your XH's place, I would have a hard time offering forgiveness if you are still with the man that you left me for; it would feel like giving that relationship my blessing.