feel like giving up - pt 2

[flowmom]

Luvless, I have to say that it's really hard for me to read your thread. I haven't read the whole thing, so I don't know all the details.

I got the bomb dropped on me 6 days before you did, and now I have NO reason for hope or any indication that H cares about me as a wife or even as a human being (beyond what I can provide to his children as a mother). All of our interactions are transactional.

You are dealing with justifiable anger and desire to protect yourself and I can only imagine how hard that is. But do you know how much I wish to be in your shoes? It sounds like your choices and actions will directly affect the chance of reconciling in your M. I still want what I've always wanted: to give this my M best effort so that if it dissolves I know that I did everything I could to make it work, for myself and for my children. I hope that if I wasn't sure about the M, I would have the strength to do what I wish my H would do now...cope with my hurt and distress and bring my best self to trying to make it work.