Thanks Kara & Luv - I'll be thinking and praying about that.
Yesterday we finished up painting daughters room and he was still drinking more beer and passed out on the couch afterwards. I am still pretty sick so I just relaxed the rest of the day.
We went to dinner and he talked to the kids about where he wanted to go with them (he's been doing this consistently) he leaves me out. It used to really upset me now it just makes me mad.
So...here we go again another week in limbo land. I understand about self fulfilling prophecy - I am avid believer of it but I've been trying to be more positive and keeping faith when in reality any reconciliation seems so dim.
I know ST keeps telling me my H is behaving normally but wow I just keep asking myself can I get over what he's done and said? It's been 4 months and I can't imagine going through another 4 like this. I know he told his friend "time is near" so I feel I need to protect myself. I do not trust him he is very conniving. I mean look at what he pulled on Sat night? He wanted to sleep with me then he coldly wanted to go on the couch afterwards? he was just trying to pull me back in (F that)
Ok guys - keep talking to me please - my time is winding down here.
