Aver, good for you for sticking to your guns and fighting for the house when some of us were telling you to walk away! I am impressed that the odds were against you getting it and here you are...

So the burden of the house is definitely why I personally don't want my house.

The guilt is just a feeling but guilt implies shame for doing something wrong and you didn't do ANYTHING wrong, woman!!! Maybe you don't really want the house and were fighting for it for revenge? Or it's just a wacky feeling.

me,34
exH,34
S,16 months
S:3/31/09-left for OW
started DBing 10/09
d final: sometime 10/10
current:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1
met in 2004