I'm glad you enjoyed my Worst Case Scenario. I chuckled a bit myself reading it. But it is a good insight into the way my mind works.
BUT HERE IS THE BIG NEWS:
I think X just sent me a proposal offering to be bought out for $64K. That is just a drop in the bucket compared to what I thought I would have to do (100K!)
I am talking with the bank right now. Important things to be NON-EMOTIONAL about:
*it is a big old house that needs lots of upkeep. *just mowing the lawn and picking up branches from the willow tree can occupy 2-3 Sundays a month. *do I want the financial/time burden of this house? what about the cute little timberframe bungalow my friend offered to build?
And--I am suddenly awash in guilt, remorse.
I think I ALMOST the other day said: I can deal with OW living in the house (that's The Work, working). I think I almost reached some peace with that.
and pictured myself in the new snug maintenance free bungalow. Lots of free time to go snowboarding.
Awash with guilt over 'taking' 'winning' the house that HE put so much more into than I did. I helped, don't get me wrong, but it was his vision and dream that made it.
As I may have posted before, if our R had ended in any other way---talking about his unhappiness, trying all best to remedy it--if it hadn't worked out, I would gladly have turned over the keys and given him the house. His heart is in it.
But with the A, and no commmuication--the whole deal--I just couldn't.
I am at a middle stage in my healing, and now am faced with the Big Girl question: the house is mine if I want the financial/time burden of it.