Remember you only have to have the faith the size of a mustard seed. You can do this DU - Please work on the 3 GAL things that were sent to your alt account. Work on that list you will begin to feel better. You will. I call you later. Keep your head up.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Been thinking a lot about all of the support I have received here and the encouragement. I have been focused TOO much on my H and what he has done or is doing. I must say that I am disappointed that he has not even attempted to contact me. Makes my think that I do NOT cross his mind at all (although I know that may be be "my" thinking).
He has been very insensitive because of the listing of items in our home that he wants to split. Since I had a tough time yesterday and this morning. I am going to "ignore" his email and just leave it at that......
You have all told me not to worry about my H, but I can't help but be concerned about what he is doing and who with.
I did spend time with a girlfriend and her kids today and this evening. It was great to spend time with them and get my mind off of my H.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
DU, I'm on a similar timeline to you, and I know how hard it is not to focus on the WAH. It does help to spend time with other people and I'm so proud of you for doing that.
I also find that some times are harder than others.
<don't read this part guys> I've found that I really fall apart emotionally about the sitch both times that I've had PMS since the separation. I know now and I will have a better self care plan in place to deal with it next time.<ok done now>
We have to become experts on self care now. We have to look for clues as to what helps us to feel better. And when we feel better we need to notice what helped us to get there.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
This time is about US the LBS's. It is a time to search ourselves, heal and really find out who we are and what WE really want. This is OUR time. Our joy should not be dependent on someone else - it is OUR joy. DU - Keep your head up - this is tough but you will make it. You will flourish. Think of yourself as a caterpillar in a cocoon - soon you will flourish, spread you wings and fly like a beautiful butterfly. Doubt & Fear...well here is my answer to those...Isaiah 41:13 - For I the Lord your God will HOLD your right hand, I am the Lord, Who says to YOU - Fear NOT I will help you!
Keep moving forward, look up at Him do not look at your H. In God time he will deal with him now it is time for YOU!
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
You are all RIGHT. And Flowmom, let's just say I agree with the PMS situation.
BTW, my H called my cell phone today. A girlfriend of mind and her kids stayed over last night, so we enjoyed the day outside. I have not called him back. I am so shocked because when they tried to call last week (when I was in the hospital) he did not return the call or even attempt to contact me to see if I was okay.
I almost picked up the phone, but decided to just let it be, especially since he sent HIS list of our house inventory to separate (b/t us) on Saturday after knowing I was not feeling well. Your thoughts?
So an update on things I did for myself (or others) today:
1) Got up and made breakfast for the kids (pancakes, bacon, eggs). They LOVED it so it made me feel good to make the kids happy - DONE
2) Spent time outside in the woods behind my house with the kids exploring nature. They were so cute picking up every stick or picking the newly grown flowers. - DONE
3) Re-organized my IPOD playlists - DONE
4) Shopped online for new wardrobe. I haven't done much shopping at all since the H left and with the weight loss, it is about time. - DONE
5) Take Nice relaxing bubble bath - TONIGHT
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
I like your GAL activities. Isn't that funny (in s sad way) that we have to make an effort to think of US. I don't know about you but all my married (32y) life I always thought about everyone else first and did things for myself if/when there was time left. Which wasn't often.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
